
You might remember, from back at the beginning of the NFL season, when we previewed each team by having a writer we liked write about their favorite team.
Well, we're less than a week away from the start of baseball — spring training is here! — so it's time to do the same thing in the baseball world. Every weekday until the start of the season, a different writer will preview his/her team. We asked a gaggle of writers, from the Web, from print, from books, to tell us, in as many or as little words as they need, Where Their Team Stands. This is not meant to be factual, or dispassionate, or even logical: We just asked them to riff on why they love their team so much, or what their team means to them, or whatever.
Today: The St. Louis Cardinals. Your author is Will Leitch.
Will Leitch is the editor of Deadspin and the author of Life As A Loser and Catch. He enjoys adding the third person to his already versatile pronoun arsenal. His words are after the jump.
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Like the rest of us, I find that time plays more and more tricks on me as I get older. Years slip by without me realizing it; an event that feels like it just happened turns out to have occurred three years ago. I go months without seeing friends I used to talk to every day, and it doesn't seem like all that long an amount of time. I lose track of basic dates and anniversaries, not because I don't care, but because I can't believe we've come back around to a particular day already. My sister is exactly four-and-a-half years younger than I am; she will turn 27 in two weeks, and, I swear to God, I am absolutely certain I was just 27 myself.
This is normal, and natural. Each time our age notches one more digit, we have more experiences to process, more emotions to catalog, more people who drift in and out of our lives, leaving us uncertain of their meaning, wondering if they were ever there in the first place. I've reached the age where I'm secure in who I am and where I am going; when I'm 36, I'll pretty much be the same guy I am now. Five years isn't going to change me as much as it used to. It's not progression or growth anymore; it's just the odometer, slowly clicking forward. Time completely confuses me, because age is entirely backwards; I lose perspective on how much a singular event affects me as I get older, rather than gain it. Dramatic episodes are easier to deal with in the moment because it feels like they mean less; I've had plenty of them before, and who's to say, at this second, which is more monumental than any of the others. Just more shit that happened; I'm sure there's more coming too. No need to work myself all up about it. The more experiences I have, the less each one matters. It's the absolute worst part of getting older.
But this has not happened with the St. Louis Cardinals' World Series title last year. It happened five months ago today, and it feels like it was exactly five months ago. So much has changed in my life in the last five months. People I thought would still be here are gone, and people I thought I'd never talk to have surfaced. The ground has shifted under my feet, in my personal life, my professional life, my family life. It has been a packed few months. But the Cardinals winning the World Series, physically being there at Busch Stadium with my parents and 50,000 screaming loons wearing bright red ... it's the one thing in my life that hasn't had even the slightest erosion of importance. It feels as powerful right now as it did then.
This is another reason that sports, when sports are at their best and most timeless, are better than real life: They have logical storylines. The first year I started watching baseball, at the age of six, the Cardinals won the World Series. Act One. The next 24 years involved a desperate search for another one, the lean years of Felix Jose, the tragic years of Darryl Kile and Jack Buck, the near-misses of 2002 and 2004. Act Two. And then that freezing night in October, surrounded by the family that has made the Cardinals the organizing principle of its bond, when I found release. Act Three. I searched for victory, and I found it. fin. It's self-contained and logical and beautiful.
The memories of that night are frighteningly vivid. Counting down the outs (I didn't dare start before the sixth inning). Unleashing howls of pain every time someone hit the ball to Chris Duncan. The ninth inning, which, upon watching the game on television for the first time last week, was just as stressful as I recollected. (The tying run was on base!) And then, the final strikeout, and the mayhem. Embracing my parents and yelling as if time was ending right now and I had to unleash all the air my lungs had left. Running through the concourse and high-fiving children, old men, ushers, dogs, beer carts. Text messaging "YAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" to everybody I knew. Streaming out into the street, hugging anyone I could find.
It happened five months ago today, and it feels exactly like five months. It is a singular event, existing outside time, logic, reason or emotion. It's not that I'll never forget it; it's that its existence sometimes make me wonder if, when all is said and done, and my nicotine addiction has finally caught up with me, it will be the only thing I remember.
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Anybody who says the first title just makes you hungrier is full of it. I will root for the Cardinals this year, but yeah: It feels different now that they've finally won one. When he took over as Cardinals manager a decade ago, Tony LaRussa asked for the number 10 on his uniform, because a World Series title would be the Cardinals' 10th. Let's just say he hasn't changed it to 11 this year.
It actually took me a while to warm up to this new season. I kind of wanted Major League Baseball to take a year off; the more days they hold off starting the season, the longer the St. Louis Cardinals remain the current champions, and the longer I can hang onto all that comes with it. I watched the team's lackadaisical, playing-with-house-money offseason with bemused detachment. It was probably wise to avoid the frenzied money virus the rest of baseball caught - do you realize how much money the Cubs paid Jason Marquis? - and this was an offseason when Cardinals fans didn't mind all that much. We were not demanding a big free agent signing; we're still coasting from October. There isn't much pressure on the Cardinals brass right now. Nor should there be. The Cardinals will be as much a part of my life this summer as they always are, but if they end up missing the playoffs, I will be able to pop in my DVD of Game 5, or the NLCS Game 7, and it will help. It will make everything feel better.
And this is the part that worries me: What if it always makes everything feel better? What if, five years from now, the Cardinals are mired in last place, and I'm still staring at my DVDs, flipping through my World Series photo album, gleefully lobotomized, sated by the past? What if the itch I scratched last year never returns? After all, it was a timeless night that ended a storyline; what if there are no more stories? What if the night continues to shine so brightly that it overwhelms all that might come after it?
I don't have the answer to those questions, and, because it has only been five months, I don't really care. The Cardinals are the World Series Champions, and I was there, with the people I love the most. Time won't change that night. Time won't even matter. For once, time loses.

Deadspin's 2006 World Series Coverage [Deadspin]












Comments
One of these days one of my teams (Redskins/Wiz) is going to win another title. All that's missing is moody linebacker who wants 20 million before he shows up.
fuck.
No fair getting people choked-up before 10am. Great post.
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE! THE DAY HAS ARRIVED!
Really nice preview, Will.
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Ladies and gentlemen, this is our editor.
God damn I can't wait for baseball to start. It's my final step in recovering from the NLCS.
So, why didn't Balk preview the Tigers?
Two nice people with some dude who wandered by to horn in on their picture.
Is it simple irony that Tony LaRussa's mug shot appears just after Will's gleeful recollection of last October?
Hey, Will, you may have the title, but we have the NL MVP and... um, would you care to swap?
(I remember getting my picture taken seven years ago with Tug McGraw and the 1980 World Series trophy. Now Tug's gone, and that trophy is still the last one -- correction, the ONLY one -- the Phightin's have captured. It's tough being a Philly sports fan.)
[insert cheesy message of love for my darling friend Will here]
I felt exactly the same way after the ChiSox won the series. 'You can't have baseball this year. Don't you know we won baseball?'
Excellent job, Will.
Last night on Fox Sports Net up here in Minnesota, they re-played the entire Game 5 from the Twins vs. Tigers ALCS from 1987, which propelled the Twins to their first World Series since 1965. I was 12 years old at the time and I still remember that day like it was yesterday.
Dude, you're friggin' old.
Seriously though, nice preview.
Who the hell is Will Leitch?
Was this a baseball preview or a missing chapter from Marcel Proust's "Rememberance of Things Past"
No comparison to your alcohol consumption in relation to that of Tony Larussa?
Rich and compelling.
Will's a Cardinals' fan? Huh. Who knew?
They need to bring back the blue jerseys.
Grizzled? No
I believe the first two paragraphs were wistful.....wistful.
Was that second paragraph from Cutters Monthly?
Nice preview, and I hope to feel the same elation if the Dolphins win a Super Bowl in my lifetime.
This post needs heartfelt 70s sitcom music.
Good job, Will.
Is wearing gardening gloves to a baseball game some kind of Cardinals tradition?
No (only out of respect), Will, dude.
Also, look for Leitch's new translation of the Proust epic "Remembrance of Things Past" in Barnes and Nobles this fall.
[good preview though, seriously.]
So, no mention about how the Cardinals went out and made all those great free agent singings, like, ummmmmm. Kip Wells?
I think I heard that Five for Fighting song playing (100 years??) in my head while reading this. And now it won't leave.
Fuckin' A Will, Fuckin' A.
solid preview . . . wait, are you saying the Cubs overpaid for Jason Marquis?
Five more days! Five more days!
@The Intern: We're not sure.
A little wordy, no?
Kidding, excellent job Will. Being a Devils and a Yankees fan (ducks) I can tell you that winning titles doesn't make you hungrier. If anything, it gives you a sense of confidence; another reason to believe. So the next time your team has their back against the wall, they will come through because they did it before. So enjoy it.
great post leitch, you sentimental fucker. felt same way when boston won it in 04.
As if baseball wasnt boring enough, now john kerry & Will Leitchs involved....
(inserts toothpicks to keep eyes open)
You know, with the apparent contentment you have found, the subliminal Mets digs since then just seem spiteful. So I shall toast to karma.
Good preview.
When the sox won the series, I was in the fetal position on my living room floor. Completely emotionally wiped out.
I like your experience better. Damn you Will.
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I'm declaring today Christmas because my college cable provider added Verus and ESPNClassic
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Well done Will. Two and a half years since 04, and the fire comes back, if slowly.
Thank God baseball's back.
Wait, I'm confused. Will = I?
This is uncharted territory.
So, essentially, what Will's trying to say is "Now I Can Die in Peace." Available in Paperback at your local bookstore.
That is why you are who you are. Excellent work.
Whoever this Dudespine guy is, I like him.
What is with this "I" and "me" business?
@Land of Os(borne): Dang.
@Len Bias Cocaine Surplus: Will thinks a .09 BAC is good only for a morning call in show interview.
What, no dancing video?
Bravo, sir. Very well done.
I felt the same way when the Marlins won in '97...and '03.
(please don't axe me)
Starter jackets are going to make a comeback, starting with the guy in front of the Leitches.
Your sister is almost 27 eh?
Lady...
Awesome preview, Will. And I think that is a very accurate description of how most Cards fans feel at the moment, especially those of us who were just kids in '82. The way I felt when Wainwright struck out Inge was the exact same way I felt when I was 5 years old watching Bruce Sutter.
Still, I think as we get into the summer, everybody will want to win just as much. Especially if the Cubs are able to translate all that payroll into a competitive team. Losing might not be so disappointing for a while, but the desire to win won't change.
i hope before i am too old to see and hear My Beloved Redskins will win another super bowl. in 92 i was essentially too young to really get it.
@UkraineNotWeak:
"The sight of the little madeleine, I mean, Budweiser, had recalled nothing to my mind before I tasted it..."